Hiatus

I'm going on hiatus for awhile and am taking it easy. Basically a vacation from my blog. I hope to be back at it in a few weeks or so.

Should I Stay or Should I Go

This blog has been a blessing to me. When my bipolar disorder was sending me as high as a rocket or made me want to crawl under a rock, I found writing in the blog to be extremely cathartic.

In addition to helping myself, I created this blog to teach others about living with a mood disorder. Based on the feedback I've received I feel that mission was accomplished for many.

So now my life is balanced and I'm at a crossroads. My meds are working great so I'm not having the high peaks or low valleys in my mood. In the process I seem to have lost my creative edge. I've heard from others in my support groups that this is not uncommon.

So now I have to decide what to do with my blog. Is it time to just say "mission accomplished" and move on? Sure I could continue updates on how Bradley is doing, but it would be routine stuff. Not much exciting. I had planned to switch to focusing on my diet and weight loss, but I don't have a huge interest in writing "today I ate healthy" or "I should have exercised today".

Based on all of the above I'm considering shutting the blog down. It's a difficult decision to make because I still have a strong love for it and don't want to let it go.

I'm seeking advice... Have you ever been at this crossroads? If you continued blogging, how did you become motivated again? Should I change the format? If so, to what? I've asked these questions in an older post, but now the situation is getting more grim, so I thought I'd give it another shot.

I've Been Tagged Again

My good friend, BigD at gaviotacoastline has tagged me with a few questions. Here they go:

1. My favorite Saying: There are no bad days, just bad attitudes. While I don't believe this is always true, it's probably true 90% of the time.

2. What part of your personality do you wish not to pass on to your child? I'm a chronic worrier and I hope she does not turn out the same. So far it's looking like she is.

3. While driving, what’s your biggest pet peeve? People who don't understand that the right lanes are for slow driving and the left lanes are for faster driving. When someone is driving in the left lanes slowly it should not only be my right, but my duty, to run them off the road.

4. If you could change your name, what would it be? Adam has always been my favorite name. Marcus is a close second.

5. What’s the best excuse you’ve ever heard? A kid who missed baseball practice and then claimed in all seriousness that he missed because he had hoof and mouth disease.

At this point I'm suppose to tag others, but I typically skip that part. If you'd like to consider yourself tagged, then be my guest.

Another Cartoon Repeat

Since my brain is still not functioning the way it should, I'm still having difficulty writing. My scanner is now working, but I'm having the same problem with cartooning. For now, I'll re-post another of my favorites that I've done.

Keith Olbermann Speaks Out

There's nothing I can say to add to this video. Olbermann says it all:

Marching For Liberty

I'm still licking my wounds because of the passing of proposition 8, which designates that marriage is only between a man and a woman. I'm still dumbfounded that it would pass in California. We are now in a world where people actually vote to add constitutional ammendments to restrict the rights of a group of people. Gay or not this should scare the shit out of every U.S. resident.

Friday night Maurice and I joined the protest march in Long Beach. The silver lining was the sense of uniting a community. I believe the churches that pushed for this ammendment succeeded in getting it passed, but they aint seen nothing yet. Over 2,000 joined the Long Beach protest and we were 5 - 6 blocks long. Other protests have had significantly more people join.

It appears to me we may have the sixties all over again. The protests are spreading and I believe they may start reaching nationwide. The strong sense of unity and community was powerful. It's time for those in the LGBT community unite together and no longer accept being second class citizens.

It's the dawning of a new era and the religious right and all those who want to restrict the rights of others have awakened a sleeping giant.

Back to Walking and Embracing AA

I finally got back to walking this morning. It's been awhile. I don't know my weight right now, but my clothes are telling me I've gained a bit again. DAMN CLOTHES! I go to the doctors this afternoon and I'll go ahead and weigh myself again. I haven't checked it for awhile.

My walk this morning was to an AA meeting that is one mile from my home. One mile there, attend the meeting and then one mile home. A great way to start the day. I am full of amazing energy and it's not mania. It's been a long time since I've felt like this - I hope it keeps me motivated to continue.

I'm continuing the web design project and I'm finding it somewhat difficult. My brain is still not all there to deal with details well. I'm doing it, but at a much slower pace than I use to. I'm forcing myself to continue, just pacing myself.

That's how Bradley is doing today. My scanner is still not working so once again I'll replay one of my cartoons.

A Bittersweet Day

I've made it no secret that I supported Barak Obama for president. I was very excited when it was announced he won. This truly is a momentous occasion. Even those who didn't support him should feel proud that a black man can finally be president in the U.S.

Unfortunately, nearer and dearer to my heart, proposition 8 passed in California. Proposition 8 declared that marriage is between a man and a woman. Four months ago the state supreme court declared that I am an equal citizen. I could legally marry the man I loved. That all changed yesterday. The citizens of the state voted to overturn the Supreme Court's decision.

I don't really know what to say about all this. I've shed a few tears. I'm ready, without hesitation, to move to Canada, but I don't think Maurice is open to the idea. Many have already told me they would perceive that as cowardly. I, however, consider it just voting with my feet. If Americans want to consider me a second class citizen, then fine, I'll just go where they feel differently about that.

Three separate states added to their constitutions last night that marriage is only between a man and a woman. So yes, we finally have reached the point that a black man is in office, but there's still plenty of hate to go around.

Anger and sadness are ripping my guts out right now. Fuck you to all the haters out there.

ELECTION DAY

It's election day and this political junkie can't tear himself away from the tv. See ya'll tomorrow.